My Life: In the simplest terms: I am a mother, a leader, a writer, a seeker.
A spark-finder, a light-shiner, a well-wisher, a deep-thinker, a magic-seer.
I'm obsessed with maximizing creative potential, in myself, and in others. I enjoy engaging my Life to find inspiration in every moment that I can and creating something that is hopefully meaningful on the other side of fear, adventure, awe, bliss, or solitude.
My career is with my community, my heart is with my son, family and friends, my passion is in adventure and new experiences, and my peace comes most easily in the garden or by the water.
I like to write in flowery words. But in reality that means: I present well in public, but am often a hurried, hot mess with wet hair, hiding toddler-induced stains on my shirt with a cute scarf. (Although, since first writing this bio, two years ago, I've since developed a much more balanced morning routine and don't rush as much.) I work in a quiet and quaint small-town library and to balance that out, I like to get loud as often as possible. I love live music in any sort of venue; great talks and long nights with cold beer. Stargazing. Traveling. Storytelling with friends and family. Post-bath snuggles and making up stories and songs with my little boy. And in solitude, I love my garden and I often go to the water: nature calms me down when an overproduced, overwhelming, too-busy and uncertain world makes me want to spin off into space. And I'm a sucker for a good philosophical rabbit-hole and a mind that entertains them.
I am often pulled in many directions by creative impulse...but I am a writer, by design. It's something I can't not do. It's what I always come home to, whether it's fiction, memoir, poetry, or songwriting. It's a medicine for my soul, as most writers will tell you. But I also need people. I am not an introverted hermit, by any means. I crave interactions. I am a librarian by day and a smitten Mommy by night to an amazing little boy. I put a whole lot on my plate, by choice. I intend to experience everything that I can in this Life, and that often means having little down-time. I don't pretend to do-it-all, but I do what brings the most value, gratitude, and joy to my mind, body, and soul.
I am a full-time working, co-parenting Mom, serving the public as a librarian, and I love my library and my co-workers. I am family-centered and love the simple things as much as I enjoy the vibrance of the city and some good, loud music. I am healthy and constantly chasing my 19-year-old body and I haven't caught it yet. I might not ever, but the chase keeps my current-reality body moving. I am a sustainable foodie = I am a fan of locally sourced, ethically grown and treated food: at the grocery store, in the backyard, and when I eat out. I am an anxiety advocate, a chakra balancer, and a firm believer in the power of meditation and Mind I am very spiritual, deeply vested in ancient ideas, yet intrigued by science, and I linger where these worlds meet I seem to be on an endless quest, exploring the world with new eyes. And it's a big world out there.
These things fill me up, and by creating time for them, I am blessed, balanced, and content.
I observe and participate in the human experience, and scribble down what I think the lessons are, with the hope that I can help myself, and possibly someone else, understand a thing or two. Why? To enjoy the gift of Life. To make the most of it. And I love living my Life. I love gaining those insights and sharing them. I love falling down a hole of doubt, fumbling around in the dark, questioning everything...and climbing back out with new insight and renewed vigor for living. And the whole process would be lost without laughter, I love to laugh. Most of all, I love the bliss of perspective, the shift that occurs, when we learn something new. This is why I crave challenges and learning.
I live to be inspired, to pass it on to others, to be moved, to be shaken, to be awed...and often, the most profound lessons are found in the simplest things. While much of what inspires me comes through human interaction, adventure, new experiences, and people watching...I find a wellspring within myself, when I quiet my mind. I try to pass on what inspires me to others, if they are open to receiving it. I believe we should all be able to live a Life without regret, with lots of gratitude and joy, always choosing peace, love, passion, and kindness. Given we can get through the lack of sleep, the overthinking, the idiotic mistakes, the cravings for things that work against us...and so on. Life is messy and uncertain...but when we accept that, accept that all of it is a part of the path...it can be charming, full of wonder and surprise, and chock full of meaning and irony, beauty and passion and magic at every turn. If we allow it, and if we keep a good sense of humor.
My Work / Art: I have been writing for many, many years, but Ana J. Awakens is my first real labor of love that I have shared with the world. It was written during an emotionally turbulent, yet extremely soulful time in my Life, and I'm quite proud of it. it's filled with medicine for women going through Life changes: such as divorce, relocating, re-entering the workforce, new relationships, new spiritual paths, mother-daughter relationships. It's a journey novel, it's transformational, and I know you'll love it. Find it here on Amazon.
In the space between finishing my first novel and embarking on a new writing journey, I was so lucky to continue writing inspirational pieces for publication through ABTM - A Better Today Media and Eat This Poem where I contributed a fun City Guide for the North Shore of Long Island. Both of these irreplaceable experiences have helped me, incredibly, to sharpen and hone my writing voice, my confidence, and... my interests. Forever grateful. Editors for both sites were a pleasure to work with and I learned a lot through each experience.
I am at work on a new project that engages my passion to travel and embrace new experiences, while incorporating simple, yet deep wisdom that's been hard-won through personal battles: with new-found anxiety, body image, a past filled with depression and near-death experiences, crises of faith, wading through ups and downs post-divorce, while learning to co-parent while discovering who this new woman is, this new and ever-evolving ... me. This new work is about knowing oneself: who you are, what you want, and having the courage to heal, to show up, and to go experience your Life, no matter what. It's about self-love and balance. it's about standing strong in your own shoes and being bold enough to chase your dreams, even when it's scary. It's about making mistakes. It's about magic and moons and moods. It's about women. It's about rekindling the American Spirit and revisiting the American Dream. it's about hope, it's about tomorrows. it's about Light. It's about Love.
And I can't wait to finish her and set another unique creation free. The working title is Wild Horses and Mistakes.
"Life is an adventure. Don't just sit there. Live in it. Let your Life be your greatest story."