It's been bugging me that I haven't written a post in about a month. I've been in the process of moving and adjusting and as of now... I am still surrounded by boxes, despite weeks of sorting through years of my life in a series of "things," tossing some out, letting go... and keeping some.
I would think about this blog, try to come up with a topic, and I have just been too busy and mind-cluttered to think of something worth sharing. Then it hit me.
Creating time and priorities.
I had actually allowed myself to become so immersed in the process of packing, moving, unpacking, working, writing, caring for a toddler... that I nearly postponed a doctor visit to guarantee a refill of my thyroid medication. This used to be a pattern for me... all obligation and putting myself last.
I did go. Only missed one dose, which is no big deal.
It was all a great reminder of how vital it is for us to intentionally create time, for ourselves. Even if it's only fifteen minutes. A few minutes to breathe, quiet the outside; the demands, the expectations, the ways of old that we became so accustomed to and need to release.
Sometimes we get so busy, we put so much in front of us, that we get lost in the shuffle.
Insist on that time. A few moments with no gadgets, TV, noise, music blaring, no running around... just to sit and be... makes a world of difference.
And here's something I've learned... I have to do it all the time. I think we are constantly growing and expanding, but we are also knocked back here and there to absorb some lesson, some truth, that will help us. Help us to heal from the past, shed illusions, purge our self-limiting thoughts and behaviors. This is all a part of it, a part of the journey, to becoming our true, limitless, and amazing selves. And it is all about the journey. Appreciate it.
So when I used to fear and fight against struggle, doubt, and all the rest... I now welcome struggle. To face obstacles, to struggle, is a gift. A blessing. But we must stare them down, all the inner-ugliness... push through, see ourselves clearly, learn the lesson, and keep moving forward. Our struggles reveal our strengths.
So... once I stopped thinking, it seems I had plenty to write about. There's a lesson there...